I am so pleased and happy to announce that today is my Two Year Anniversary of leaving Mormonism!I looked back on some old journals, and it was recorded on January 14th, 2006 that I had officially decided that Mormonism was a fraud, and that I was going to leave the Mormon Church.
It was the beginning of a new year, and I struggled through the various levels of: denial, bargaining, justification, anger, and sadness, until I reached acceptance ... and finally gratitude.
In the two years since I have learned much about the real history of Mormonism, the truth about the church, and I have finally grown up and found my place in 'the real world'.
I no longer live in a self-deluded fantasy, and I will always be proud of myself for leaving Mormonism, for escaping the indocrination and guilt, and for thinking for myself.
I have studied Christianity, history, religion in general, evolution, science and many more subjects. I have learned more in the last two years of study than I learned in 8 years of Mormonism. But the process of learning is an on-going thing, which will never end.
I am so much happier, and I feel a peace in my heart that was missing for those eight years. I feel self-acceptance, I feel acceptance for others, and I marvel at the beauty of this world that I once so arrogantly condemned and took for granted.
Tears come to my eyes, because I don't even know how to express how grateful I am, to have left Mormonism, how much more free my spirit is, how wonderful life really is.
Leaving Mormonism was painful and difficult, but it was one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life. I'm so proud of myself, so happy to have done it, and I truly hope I can help others in their journey out of it.
I am in debt to those who took the time and effort to expose Mormonism, and to tell the truth. To all those who wrote articles, made videos, made websites and blogs, to those who spoke openly ... I owe my education to you. I owe my freedom to you. Thank you for the work you have done, and please know it has not been in vain.
Is this how it feels to be free?
Is this how it feels to be me?
Today I smiled, because I feel alive --
for the first time, in a long time.
7 comments:
You say that that you are happy (and I truly wish you were) but that can not be the case. How can you say you feel peace when so much of your time is spent in such a hateful way?
What good are you doing? What joy are you providing to the world? Your blog is dedicated to riping apart religion (Mormons specifically), why, when it brings so many people such happiness?
You seem like you have a good heart, and you are obviously talented. It is unfortunate that you couldn't find a better outlet for your skills spread compassion and joy instead of hate.
I wish you well and truly hope you find what ever it is that you are looking for :)
Galatian,
I feel the same way although I've been out of the church just over a year. I feel for the first time in my life that I'm being an authentic person, that I'm finally dipping my oars in and rowing vs. floating along and doing everything I was told would bring everyone happiness.
The truth is, we are all different (making the one-size-fits-all approach of Mormonism harmful to some of us), and finding your authentic self is not a "hateful" endeavor but rather a beautiful one that in the end allows you to love everyone no matter who or what they are.
Congratulations on your authenticity and living your life the way you see fit.
Happy anniversary Galatian,much love and joy and peace to you,because I have just recieved my letter from the lds church,that I am no longer a member of the lds church,now that is music to my ears,because I resigned from the church last year.
I am really confused. How can you hate Mormonism so much? I don't really see anything in it that could cause so much hatred in anyone.
Many people hate it because of something that a Mormon did, not Mormonism. There is a big difference. People aren't perfect, no one here is, and so obviously some people will be mean, hateful, gossipy, and such. I have had some such things happen to me. But I still love the faith. Thank You.
Aly, the problem isn't that a Mormon in particular did something - everyone knows one person doesn't reflect an entire church.
The problem is the LDS church systematically misleading new converts (or those raised in the church), hiding its history, etc.
I would NEVER have joined the church if I knew that it had a racist history against blacks (being denied the priesthood til 78) and all the terrible things the prophets had taught.
I would NEVER have joined if I knew Joseph Smith had 33 wives, including teenagers and married women that he was also sexually active with ... and wrote D&C commandments about polygamy.
I would NEVER have joined if I knew Brigham Young instituted BLOOD ATONEMENT doctrine and that Mormons were killed to "atone" for their sins in early Utah.
I would NEVER have joined if I knew that Joseph Smith killed 2 men with a pistol the day he died, that there is no proof for the BOM, that he was proven a fraud with the Book of Abraham and the Kinderhook Bell. ETC.
If the missionaries hadn't lied and manipulated me, and had told me the TRUTH and answered my questions -- I wouldn't have joined!
And people, after learning about the LDS church's true history (blood atonement, killing squads - Danites - sex with teenage girls, etc) have a REAL big problem with it.
Not to mention DNA evidence against the BOM and on and on and the church continues to lie up to this day!
So yes, people are angry and want to do something about it. If prophets having sex with teenagers, blood atonement, killing squads, racism, bigotry, and all that is OKAY by you and you still think this God's true church -- fine. But I don't. And I will continue to talk about it with those who DON'T KNOW ALL THAT and teach them the truth.
It's that simple.
I just found out that another sibling of mine has left the church!! We are now 5 non-mormons/ 3 mormons in my family. My brother (as myself) are so much happier now. I just got on the internet wondering if there is a mass exodus going on because I never thought this particular brother would leave the church. It is really wonderful to see so many people finding the truth (or lack of truth to the mormon church). I really do feel grateful to be out of mormonism.
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